Wednesday, March 28, 2012

games :]

David Sirlin has helped me to better understand a little more about what it is that I enjoy so much about playing games with other people.
Competitive games are a means of expression as well. Players seem to have trouble approaching a game differently than they approach life in general. The way they take in information, the way they make decisions, the aspects they value, and the skills they excel at are usually similar inside and outside of the game. In fact, many people, myself included, have come to understand a lot more about who they really are through the way they end up expressing themselves in games. There are many forms of expression in the world, but one of the advantages of competitive games is that they force you to test your worldview against the worldviews of others. It’s easy to develop highly unpopular theories about life in general that you have no real way of testing, but competitive games force you to jump in, get dirty, and see how those ideas really stack up. If you are an unconventional genius, you will prove so beyond all doubt. If you are a confused quack, that too will be borne out, and you will have the opportunity to learn from others and change your ways.
"Final Thoughts" from http://www.sirlin.net/ptw/

His Playing To Win book (free on his site!) is highly recommended reading if you play any kind of games at all.

Wednesday, February 22, 2012

two instances in two days

so i realized i have this bad tendency.

when i'm in a public place, put on the spot, and i have to respond to someone of the african-american descent, in the heat of the moment, i tend to blurt out something ghetto like, "yeh it's all good."

last night, at livingston dining hall's mongolian grill, there's an awesome black guy who cooks the food.  here's how the conversation went..

me (thinking): alright, next step is to tell him what kind of sauce i want.  i'm so ready to say spicy duck sauce, 'cause it's so good, mmm spiciness, yeahhh
him: what kind of sauce do you want?
me: i'll have spicy duck!
him: sorry, we don't have anymore.
me (thinking): AHHH PANIC AHH WHAT AHH OKAyAHH
me: oh, uh, i'll have teriyaki then.
him: yeah, sorry we ran out of duck.
me (in a slightly ghetto tone): haha it's all good
me (thinking): WAIT WHAT DID I JUST SAY WHAT THE WHAT I'M SO DUMB

then again tonight..
i put my bike on the rexb bike rack.
the black bus driver gets off the bus and shakes my bike.
him: just wanted to make sure it's secure!
me: haha yeah it's all goood
SHOOT.

._____.

Friday, December 30, 2011

why? who needs a why?

it's sunday, october 30th, 11:30pm.
dan, tim, and i finished worship practice on busch and are on our way back to the apartment.  on the sidewalk before we reach our apartment door..  for whatever random reason (aka tim), a minor scuffle ensues, blocks of snow are thrown around, and then..  one of us randomly throws a chunk of snow onto our front steps.  the other two follow along and proceed to find chunks of snow nearby, hurling them onto the front steps.  and then it begins..


took a picture, and thought we were done after this cute pile of snow.  but nope.



"why are we doing this?  WHO CARES, KEEP GOING"


"they'll never think that we did it, because why would we use snow and block our own front steps?!"


these chunks of snow were big, heavy, cold, and hard to hold.  it was half an hour of tiring work.  but we kept going.


the pile grows.  we end up having to go 1-2 apartments down in order to get chunks of snow, since we exhaust all the ones by our own door.



IT IS COMPLETE. 


a view from inside the door.


this was the next day, around noon (yes, that's when i woke up).


sad sad.  BUT SO FUN.


Thursday, November 17, 2011

thought 9

girls wearing cologne would be mad legit.

Monday, October 31, 2011

racism!

while on the A bus, i witnessed the bus driver (a white man) ask a student (a black man) to get up from his seat in the front of the bus and go take a seat in the back of the bus.

lul

Wednesday, October 12, 2011

who does this?!

the other night, i was riding my bike as esther was walking behind me, on our way to catch a bus at the suites stop. i was traveling slightly faster than walking speed, and decided to loop around. however, the curb was coming up quickly, so i had to make a sharp turn. i turned the handlebars to maybe about 40 degrees (off of the forward), and then the front bike wheel crumpled. it basically bent in half.

like, REALLY? this happens?! adfjkasldfjilnilzewiauofandkl

now, once again, i am without my wings. forever destined to walk on two feet.

t____t

Saturday, May 7, 2011

thought 8

using the outside of a sleeping bag as the sheets for my bed has been the best idea i've had this semester. i love the feel of synthetic material. so soothing and niceeeee.

Friday, April 22, 2011

sleeping

for me, sleep is an interesting thing.

i wouldn't say it's one of my loves, though i do enjoy it a lot. how much i sleep is pretty much dependent on everything else in my life, though i generally am sleeping between the hours of 12 and 3. waking up at 12 is a good time for me.

i'm someone who's always had a difficult time waking up, being easily tempted back to the dream world and the pleasure of "just a few more minutes" when i know i should be waking up. this has resulted in many missed classes, overslept lunch appointments, and frantic bike rides to wherever i have to be.

note: before we proceed, i would like to say that i am not a sleep expert, and have not studied anything about sleep. these are just my personal opinions and gatherings.

what i'm going to talk about next is how i fall asleep and what i need to sleep. i realized this is something i should have written much earlier, and would have helped to have before college started. nonetheless, here it is.

when it comes to falling asleep, people talk mainly of light and sound. and of course, the definitions of light and sound can be subjective. however, i honestly think that the main proponent to being able to fall asleep in your circumstances is simply believing that you can.

(these upcoming "requirements" are for when i feel normally tired, not extremely tired. also, these are for going to sleep at night, but also translate to napping.)

lights

i can sleep with the lights on, meaning the room light, so that automatically includes everything not as bright as the room light, such as a desk lamp, computer monitor glow, you name it. as for strobing lights.. maybe, i haven't tried that yet, but i can imagine it'd be a bit harder.

in any case, i don't get why this is hard. if there are lights on,
1) close your eyes.
2) don't open them.
3) fall asleep.

sound

sound is where it gets interesting and more complex. for me, the criteria for sound for which i can fall asleep to depends on how attentive the sound is to me. i believe the better able you are in making a sound "background noise", the less hindering it will be towards your sleep.

in my mind, sound can be categorized with two factors: consistency and harshness.

consistency is described as intermittent vs. constant. scattered vs. predictable.
the less you have to guess, and the less randomness inherent in the sound, the easier it is to sleep to it. i believe this is because it's easier for your mind to not think about the sound when the sound is predictable.

harshness is described as piercing vs. gentle, and to a lesser degree, loud vs. soft. piercing sounds are hard to put in the background, but that's not necessarily the same with loud sounds.

these two factors combine to determine whether or not a sound is attentive (instrusive) to your efforts to sleep. i believe consistency plays a bigger part in the acceptability of the sound than harshness does, in that it's easier to sleep to a constant harsh sound than to an intermittent gentle sound.

(note: intermittent means irregular intervals.)

examples:

computers humming - most people don't hear this anyway, but if you do, it's really constant and gentle, and can easily be backgrounded [easy]

portable heater - very constant, a bit louder, but still a gentle sound. [easy]

tv - constant, gentle, predictable. this seems to be the standard test for people's acceptance of noise levels as they trying to sleep. [easy]

concerts - perhaps you've seen people (parents?) fall asleep when they went with you to concerts. how? even though it's monstrously loud, they're able to effectively put the noise in the background and not have it bother their sleep. the noise, while loud, is predictable and constant. boredom also probably helps a good bunch. [haven't done it myself, but if i had to, moderately easy]

group chatter - group chatter tends to have a high level of consistency (save for the outbursts), which makes up for the high volume it can have.
few people chatter - a few people talking tends to have a lower consistency with a lower volume.
so, they're about the same. [pretty easy]

radio - a moderately gentle sound, but radio stations aren't constant enough- different songs, talking, commercials. [difficult]

typing - THE WORST! intermittent, piercing sounds (partly depends on the keyboard, but most keystrokes sound like bullets when you're trying to sleep). [difficult]

snoring - while the sound can be described as predictable since it's regular breathing, the gaps between breaths makes it not "busy" enough, and the sound quality is also not gentle enough. [difficult]

beyond the nature of these sounds, flexibility is important, and a lot of what flexibility entails is first, how hard you try to sleep despite surrounding conditions, and second, how much you believe you can fall asleep in those conditions. both of those play a big role in sleeping. for example, i've fallen asleep to all of the "difficult" conditions above, because as hard as it may have been, it wasn't impossible.

with that said, think about the conditions which you think you need to sleep

on a somewhat-related side note: when i sleep, i like to occupy my mind with active thoughts about something- usually badminton, hockey, blog entry ideas, tetris, or something like that. this is because it helps me to block out anything else around me, and thus help me fall asleep better.

i like to sleep on my tummy. :}

Monday, April 4, 2011

inefficiency

i hate inefficiency.

it's the worst when i know something can be done a significantly simpler or faster way, because it'll nag me the whole time if it's not being done that way.

that's why i despise walking around campus, even short distances, because i'll always wish i could be biking.

Saturday, April 2, 2011

shuttlecock


one of my favorite things to do on the badminton court, second only to playing badminton, is straightening the feathers on used birdies. i have this tendency to like to polish up worn and scuffed things, and these shuttles perfectly feed this pleasure of mine.

and i was thinking today.. what kind of person came up with the design of the shuttlecock? i wonder who thought, "hey, let's take a cork and attach some feathers to it and whack it around!"

AWESOME.

i think the shuttlecock in badminton is one of the most unique ball/projectile objects in all of sports. wouldn't you agree?

<3 badminton