chasing shadows as the evening takes me

drinking water from the sink is completely changing how i view bottled water. and it's also getting me through my current cold. thanks katie!

[r.r.r]

-i am a pc person. straight up.

-i am so scared of heights. the scariest hour (or half hour, or two hours, i don't remember 'cause i was too scared to keep track) of my life was the high ropes course at asian young life camp at saranac. holy DANG was i scared through that whole thing. i remember praying a lot. luls.

-when i was younger, like really young, i pooped in the toilets in my house by putting my hips THROUGH the toilet seat, so that the toilet seat like, held my butt. i couldn't poop otherwise. i remember one time, in taiwan, at my grandparent's house, i couldn't fit my butt through the toilet seat, so i couldn't poop. and i couldn't communicate the problem to my grandparents since i couldn't speak taiwanese. (i've since adapted with my much-widened hips.)

where are your guts to fly

so just a little bit ago, the DHL man came to pick up a few packages my dad wanted me to send out for him since they're on a business trip. i open the door and give him the packages, and as he's taking them, he says..

DHL man: you used to play piano right?

DHL man: ten years ago?

ME: .. yep! i still do!

DHL man: you've grown up a lot.

[DHL man leaves]

i sort of just stood there for a little. huh.

i think it's interesting that this SAME exact DHL guy picked up packages for us mad long ago when i was in elementary school and used to practice piano right after i showered and i had on a t-shirt and tighty whities and i had to sit on a placemat i took from the kitchen because my thighs would stick to the piano bench. [hey that's like a random fact right there!]

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i saw up [in 3d] on tuesday! i'm not normally one to say "ooh i saw this movie today and it was cool" because really, no one's interested in hearing about that unless there's something interesting to read about it.

but, UP. man. i REALLy enjoyed that movie. i'm not sure exactly what it was, but the liberties allowed with animation, plus the main character being asian, combined into the multitudes of hilarious moments, created a movie that had me LOL-ing almost nonstop. it was basically as if all the little spontaneous and subtle things that i find hilarious were stuck into this movie, and they just hit every funny chord in my body. i think i found it particularly funny because the other people i saw it with (like matthew) weren't laughing nearly as much. heehee.

not so much the plotline, but moreso the CHARACTERS completely made the movie for me. i'd definitely see it again a bunch of times. i'm laughing thinking about it right now. it was also the first movie i saw in 3d, which was pretty cool in the beginning, but it wasn't outstanding as the movie got going, or maybe i just forgot it was in 3d.

[r+r+r]

-my parents leave me home alone for two weeks-ish every year or so, because they decide to go on a vacation somewhere or another. which is super cool! i know i like being home alone cause i get to go wherever and do whatever and go out to eat all the time and not do the dishes until the last day and forget to feed my dad's fish and run around naked (just kidding) and all that fun stuff.

-i wear adidas adrenaline. i bought it middle school sometime, and stuck with it ever since. it's always cool when someone says that it's my distinctive scent (which isn't often at all). the last person i remember saying that to me was kevin yuey. ha.

-i'm a picky eater. there's no "kind of" or "sorta" because i know in most people's books, i am a legitimately picky eater. just to list some things i don't like to eat: honey (ESPECIALLy not honey nut cheerios), cucumber, avocado, pickle, zucchini, tomato, mayonnaise, raw fish, egg (in small portions it's okay), asparagus, caviar, ham-salami-bologne-pastrami, corn on the cob (kernels are great!), grapefruit, eggplant, duck, frog legs, bamboo, eel, brown rice, and i know the list goes on but i just can't think of anymore. i talked to my mom about this quite recently, and she says i'm probably so picky because she's a good cook and always cooked me what i liked to eat, and little to none of what i didn't like eating. how nice. :]

i'll keep throwing rocks at your window

in the past few years or so, i've come to realize that i have difficulty with moral/ethical (i'm just going to use these as synonymous, so read with that in mind but correct me if need be) everyday decisions.

the difficulty lies not only in the picking of what i believe to be right, but, equally important, in the discernment of what is right and what is not.

and so, through the comments of some of my peers, i've come to think that my standards for and acceptance of various things are kinda different from the typical person's, but that's really subjective and not so important.

i hope that my questions will make you rethink why you feel the way you do about your standards of morals and ethics, and blur the lines between what you stick to and what you might want to consider. i like thinking.

is it okay to..

borrow a music cd from a friend?

rip the tracks off of a music cd from a friend and keep them?

send mp3s to a friend that i ripped off of a music cd that i own?

how much can i sell someone a pristine condition textbook for?

does it matter if i've owned it for a day, or a month, or a year?

what if it's brand new and still sealed in the shrink wrap?

how about a used textbook?

is there a limit to how much i can sell it for?

what if it's brand new and still sealed in the shrink wrap?

would it still be worth the same as a newly purchased textbook, since they are both in the pristine condition of "literally plucked off the bookstore shelf"?

is it okay to..

borrow cd's?

borrow dvd's?

borrow eric's psp, play through his games, and return it all to him later?

borrow a textbook for a semester?

(does the "fairness" play any role in all of this? the borrower is clearly having the advantage with being able to experience all of the material, but with no price to pay.)

ebay:

is it okay to rip tracks off a cd, and sell the cd as like new (the only thing causing it not to be brand new is the lack of a shrink wrap)?

is it okay to play through a video game, and sell the game?

how about..

spending time in bookstores reading books, but not buying them?

what if i bought the book, read it, kept it in super condition, and returned it?

is it okay to listen to recordings of sermons? (if the speaker is paid to speak somewhere, wouldn't the recordings of what he says be worth something as well?)

if a cashier accidentally gave me a coupon back that was supposed to be relinquished at time of use, is it alright to use it again?

is it okay to walk on a crosswalk with the intention of getting hit by a car, and getting mad moneys in the following lawsuit or whatever?

what if i don't have the "intention" to get hit by a car, but instead don't look both ways as i walk across the crosswalk?

what if i close my eyes walking across the crosswalk?

is it okay to hit the brakes if a car is tailgating me in such a way so that they cause an accident that is entirely their fault, thus getting me some money?

how about buying clothes, wearing them with the tags still on, and returning them?

what if i go into gamestop, buy a used game, play some of it, and return it for a full refund?

what if i play through the whole game?

does it matter whether my original intent was to purchase the game forever, or just to try it out, knowing there was a risk-free full refund?

recently, i got a free trial issue of playstation magazine. inside that playstation magazine, there was another offer for "free issue of playstation magazine"! i sent that in, and two months later, i got another playstation magazine! going with this..

since i can keep sending in the "free issue" request, is it okay to?

is it okay to use different mailboxes to prevent them finding out (if they even check)?

what if i get various friends of mine to be the ones that literally physically send in the "free issue" offers, and then have them give the magazines to me?

(note that theoretically, this would actually result in a free bi-monthly (though PSmagazine is monthly) "subscription". and if i staggered the "free issue" offers, and had two going at the same time, i could have a free annual subscription that wouldn't end as long as they kept including the "free issue" offers! yeah, i thought it out already.)

is it alright for me to eat leftover food off restaurant tables of people who already left?

what if the food was in the garbage?

what if the food was in the garbage outside the restaurant?

what if nobody was looking?

surely, you've split the price of some bottomless nachos at a restaurant with some friends.

that's okay, right?

what about sharing and splitting the price of refill-able soft drinks?

does the same apply to sharing and splitting the price of a refill-able jumbo tub of popcorn?

what if everyone brought their own container to pour the popcorn in, which would enable each person to have their own container from which to eat popcorn, all the while being constantly refilled by the official tub of popcorn, so that each person would pay just a fraction of the cost of the official tub of popcorn?

i would really like to know what you guys think about some of these things, so i can get a better idea of the kinds of standards that other people have. i know you guys have thoughts in your mind as you considered these questions, so please do share, as little to and much as you want. i'm really interested in hearing about it. :D

comments would be very helpful to me, and much appreciated.

[rRr]

-i went to chinese school for seven years, but i don't know how to read or write chinese. i can understand and speak mandarin. i can only understand taiwanese, i can't speak it. i also took italian for five years from middle school through high school, but i don't know how to speak any of it. oh well.

-i've never broken any bone in my body, or even fractured anything. no stitches either. the worst that's happened to me was a snowboarding fall in which i popped some blood vessels in my right eye and i had to get an MRI. other than that, a few rolled ankles and jammed fingers. luls.

-i had a knack for taking stuff from chemistry class in school. while i despise chemistry (and love physics!), i will admit that chemistry has probably the coolest stuff, like erlenmeyer flasks (i have a cute 125 mL one), the wooden ball-and-stick molecule structures (i have NH4), and thermometers (i have two .. broken ones)!

--MINI RANDOM FACT!-- the tap water in my house gets as hot as 160 F and as cold as 36 F. nifty, huh.